Struggling With BPD & PTSD

Something I’ve said for the longest time I don’t feel like is talked about enough is the weight people with PTSD and BPD carry after being traumatized the way you were. Anyone with PTSD from a past abusive relationship already suffers, but adding the personality disorder on top of it all makes it all so much harder to process. You have to walk around every day knowing you’re cleaning up the damage someone else caused you, but they got to just walk away. Days, weeks, months, even years go by where you feel like they stole any ounce of who you used to be. Now you're just a stranger to yourself looking to the next person to fill the void. Trying to navigate having any future relationships or friendships after going through that seems impossible. This is one I still struggle with a lot. I get scared a lot or question if I'll ever be able to feel love again or give love in a healthy way. At times it seems very hopeless and just easier to close yourself off completely, but that’s not the answer. No matter how tempting, don't push the people who care away. They love you.